Can't help it

Lots of things happened yesterday. Things that were nice and things that were terrible.
Have you ever felt the feeling when you have to say goodbye to someone dear?
It sucks and it hurts and still you can't help it. Well that's what I needed to do yesterday.
I guess since there's nothing I can do I just have to be greatful of all those amazing moments and hope that I have made that somebody happy for those moments we had.

Speaking the truth I was feeling kinda down cause of that so I decided to work hard. Cause when there's lot to do, you cannot think about anything else. So I started digging concrete tiles from the garden. I had to dig them up and carry them. They were so heavy ! It felt like I would've just started and when I asked what time was it I had already worked for an hour !
We decided to stop working for the day cause it was getting late so we went inside. We played BandHero together. I was singing. :DD It was lot of fun !

After playing for a while my dad's gf came up with an idea to go nordic walking. It was raining a lot but that's actually the best weather to go walking or jogging !
So that's what we did. I think it was a good idea and a good ending for the day.

Today I kept digging those tiles and I finally got them all up !
So here's a pic of those 28 heavy tiles I carried..!

I also met a friend of mine that I haven't seen for a long time. The reason why I met him was pretty weird but at least I met him..
On my way back home I thought I should have a moment all alone so I sat down on a bench by the lake. It's the most relaxing thing to do when you have lot on your mind.
I felt like I should take a pic of it cause the view was so pretty.

Song of the day would be: Serious by Duffy

Midsummer Day

The last evening at the camp was really long.

The morning was really usual but at the evening we were practising a lot. We were doing the show and making it more clear and better. It was really hard and since my place was always in the middle they kept saying that I was doing different things wrong.
I think all of us were really tired so it was pretty hard to make it look good. We still did our best but when it got late we decided to stop. Maria was leaving early next morning so we decided to have a barbecue at the evening. We walked to the fire place near by the lake.
We sat there and played games and told silly stories to each others. It was really nice though we were very tired. At 12 am we finally said we needed to go to bed cause we still were going to have dance classes in the morning with Omar.

In the next day we practised hard to make the routine look good. We really did. Omar video taped it few times. We had lunch and we left the camp. We went by a same car with some of us from the camp so we were able to see the video. It was actually pretty good. The thing is we're not allowed to use it in competitions.. Not even the music. It sucks.

Yesterday we had the celebration that I think is called Midsummer Day in english.. If it's not let me know the right word for it. :)
Anyways we were hanging out with my friends and we also went to the beach. It was pretty cold out there. I saw 3 bonfires ! I was so glad to see 'em cause last year I don't think I saw any.
The evening went pretty quickly and I had to leave pretty early to my dad's place.
Today we spent the day at my father's brother's cottage :D I met my cousins there and we cooked food together. They also went to sauna and swimming but I didn't feel like going. Today was pretty cold in my opinion..

We saw this bonfire from the bridge

Oh well I'm feeling kinda tired so I think I should just hit the bed.
Hope you have had a great day :)

Song of the day : One love by David Guetta ft. Estelle

As a one crew

Day 2 at the camp
Sunday:

8.00 Breakfast
We all woke up for Anni's alarm but none of us were able to get up cause our necks and shoulders were aching so bad that it was hard to lift the head from the pillow. There were many choices what to eat at breakfast but as dancers we ate little bit of everything :D
10.00 Dance class
Omar was on a nice mood and gave us a break between the breakfast and the class. When we got to the dance class they just said "We'll give you a quick warm up and we'll teach you a routine but we're not going to talk anything" We were kinda confused but we just did what they asked us to do. They asked us to do that routine in groub of three and they were just watching and suddenly they went away. We were looking each others and saying what the hell.. But we decided to keep on practising. They came back and asked us to do it once again. We did but they just stayed silent. We decided to do it again. Then they finally started talking and said "we wanted to see how you react when we give you no hints what to do. You really are a crew when you kept practising even we went away"

Second dance class
They asked us what colors you can find from the forest. We said green brown and white. Omar asked us to find something red. And a rock big as you can carry. We brought those and got together. Omar told us that the red things that we found was a symbole for those small new things that we should try to find as dancers. Then they asked us to dance the routine we had been taught while carring the big stone. That symboled the way environment changes and you still have to be able to do the routine the way you had practised.
12.00 Lunch
We ate a lot again though we weren't even hungry yet. :D
1.00pm Next dance class
We started to do a show that we could use in future. It started with the dancehall we had made and those 2 routines we had made on our own. We made our routines better by listening the music for 5 times and then changed some moves.
4.00 pm Dinner
We tried to eat little bit less than last time but i don't know if we succeeded.
6.00pm Dance class
We kept doing our routine. The next part was hiphop that was really fast. When Maria started to teach it to us she said "this routine will be fast." We were all just like oh okay she always does fast routines. But before we had a chance to say a thing she added "It will be faster that you're imagining" And she was right.
9.00 pm some snacks
We ate bread that was carried to the cabin.
We also practised after that til 10 pm. They kept saying we had to do those routines together as a one crew. Then we finally got to our room and just hit the shower and went to bed. We were exhausted.

Song of the day: I'm not crazy by audiopush

How it all started

I know I haven't been writing for so long but that's only cause I haven't been able to do it.
I spent my b-day in Helsinki at my sister's place. It was great and I found a new sweater for me too. I only had one day home after I came back because I went to a Dance Camp. It was specially for our crew and there were teaching our coaches Maria (Russian) and Omar (England).

Sunday:
9.00am Leaving from our dance school.
I thought our whole crew was coming so I was pretty suprised when I arrived and there were only 5 persons there. And there was no bus only a car. But it turned out others were coming later to the camp.
11.00am Lunch
We had finally arrived and we got our rooms from the cabin. I was at the same room with Selma, Inkku and Anni. We unpacked our bags and went to eat a lunch. The food was great !
1.30pm Dance lesson
You could think that the first dance class would be easy since we just arrived but that's so not true. We started full speed right away with dancehall. It was really heavy. We also had some stomping with Omar. He said we should bring something from the forest that makes a sound to the next class.
4.30pm Dinner
We ate again and the food was great this time too. We all ate a lot and got totally full.
18.00 Dance class
We brought those different things from the forrest. Most of us had some kind of small stones that they used but I had a branch with green leafs :D It was pretty funny but I also felt so silly while jumping around and making those patterns with that branch of mine :D
At 8 o'clock they gave us a challenge. We had to create a routine which included dancehall and stomping and used every beat of the music that was given to us. And all that was supposed to do in an hour. The groub was divided into two halves. It was really hard and we worked our butts off to create that routine but we did it. It didn't look too good and they weren't happy with the result. They gave us feedback and we just had a silly cup game at the end of the evening before we went to bed.
11.00 pm Getting crazy
We were at our room and we were all tired and we came up with this ridiculous idea to make a music video. So we started to video a show where we went down the stairs and danced on a silly way while making faces.
12.00 am Finally the silence
We finally went to bed and had some sleep after hours of laughing.

Song of the day: Get sexy by sugababes

Brighter than ever

The weather has been so great for these two days !
Yesterday I met my old classmates at the beach cause we hadn't seen each others for a while.
It was so nice to hear how they were doing and just lie at the sun :)

Later that day I went to eat with my mother and after that we went to see a ballet. They had a summer tour where they showed little clips from different ballets. It was just breath taking !
It was so nice since the weather was so good and those dancers were amazing :)

Today I went to the beach near our house cause the weather was so pretty. I spent there an hour while waiting Selma to call me. When she did I went to the down town to meet her and my other friends. We went to our friend's place for a while and we were just drinking soda and listening good music :)

I also had dinner with my friends at one restaurant. We decided to have a dinner together for my b-day since I'm going to meet my sis tomorrow when it's my actual b-day. :)
The dinner was great and it was nice to talk with girls again about everything that you can only talk about with girls. :D When we left we saw some of our friends at the down town so we decided to go to meet them while waiting a bus. It didn't take long when I had to leave to my bus but it was still a great night. :)

I feel really happy about this day. Though I'm also quite tired too. Tomorrow I'm going to Helsinki to meet my sis and celebrate my B-day ! My sister's boyfriend is going there too so he promised to give me a ride there so i don't need to go by train. :)

Anyways I hope you had a lovely day too !
God bless you all. :)

Song of the day: Love and Affection by Pressure :)

"So long I've been waiting,
To be with you all day long,
I've been anticipating."

Perspectives

Hey do you remember me telling about the competitions called Hip Hop Finland?
Well we were competing as Juniors and we won that competition ! I'm so freaking proud of my crew !
We have a chance to go to Las Vegas for World's championships but since we don't have the money to get there no can do..

But anyways there's some thoughts that I'd like to share.
I've been thinking about being happy with what you have.
I know sometimes life just feels so hard. For all of us. All of  us have a bad day and sometimes it feels like some of us have a bad month or a year.  Anyway it's all about the perspective. It may sound silly but it really is. Just think it this way: If there is someone you can spend a moment with, would you rather leave because it won't maybe last long or would you take that moment and enjoy it?
After all isn't this right moment all you have? And if you can say "i feel good to be right here right now" is there anything else you could ask for. There's not.

I know it can sound corny to talk about being happy since we have a place to live and an education for those who don't have that. There's no way i could ever relate to that. You should just look at your life and try to think what you already have. If you have someone who cares and a place to live you're pretty damn lucky. But if it's not that easy to find great things from your life at least you can say: "oh well at least I'm still alive and i survived another day." Cause there are the ones that hasn't survived from this day. There are people that has been hurt and they have to make a decision if they will be survivors or losers.

There are some sayings that helps when it feels like the whole world is against you and you're all alone while there are people living in huge houses and being happily married.
So I decided to share few that I find helpful:
                                   "When life gives you lemons, take them because hey, free lemons!"
  "When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile"
                   "When you can't have what you want, it's time to start wanting what you have."
                                          "When it's dark enough you can see the stars."     

So maybe today is your time to change your perspective. After all when it's all over it's not about who you were, it's whether you made a difference.

Song of the day: Just say yes by Snow Patrol                                  

Movies, movies, movies

I've been watching so many movies this week.
On friday we went my friends place just to hang out but he got a new tv so we had to try it and we decided to watch the movie Tears of the sun. That was a terrible movie. It was mostly just shooting and rapeing.
But the weather was great on that day so I went out with our dogs :D My dog is just kinda lazy so he didn't wanna go too far :D

Yesterday was a great day ! (:
I met my friend first and we watched a movie (suprise suprise) with him too :DD It was a finnish movie and it was about game addiction. That movie was pretty creepy but i really enjoyed it too it was really well done. I don't even usually watch finnish movies.. But that was a good one.
At the evening I came back home and watched another movie in a great company (:: The evening was awesome and I watched The Da vinci code for the second time :D

Today I woke up because my mom was at the door and i had to go to open the door for her since she didn't find her key. I had stayed up so late that I just opened the door and went back to bed. After two hours she came to my room and started to "clean" places so obviously she was just trying to wake me up without saying a word ! And as always that worked and i couldn't get any sleep.
I had breakfast and then my mom asked me if i would like to go too see one old factory that had been shut down and they were showing it to people today. I said why not cause I didn't really have any plans for today. There was this cute little train taking us there.

 

 

 

 

The old paper factory

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

After we had been wandering around the huge factory we decided to walk back cause it wasn't far away from down town. Then we decided to go home to make a dinner. It was great too. Now i'm just talking with Selma so I think I gotta go !

Have fun ,
God bless you all <3

Song of the day: Alicia keys - Woman's worth

Summer time

I'm finally getting used to this holiday ! I wish it would be a little bit warmer so I could hang out at the beach with friends but I guess that time will come soon (:

On monday I had a facial at one salon. After that I was all red but it did feel pretty nice :DD I was pretty lazy after at that day and i just took the dogs out and chilled at home.
On Tuesday i had a meeting with my friends who are comming to the confirmation camp. I don't think I did anything important that day either after i got home :D Since my mum was out of town I had to take care of the dogs.

On Wednesday there was this huge party again !
I slept pretty late on that day so I basically spent my day by doing my hair and make up :DD
When it got 7 pm I left to down town. I met my friends there and we waited for our bus. We had to wait for an hour so we all got hungry and we went to McDonald's to eat xD We took photos of each others at the mall and wandered around :D
Before I came they had been playing at one store with glitter. So there was glitter all over their faces. :D All three of them were covered with it and only 2 of them were girls :DD
Hahah they looked great :DD

Finally our bus came and we got to the party ! At first there were people SITTING around the floor and the sun was shining to the floor :DD We were looking at that place thinking like "really..? -.-" But when people got relaxed and the sun went down people started to dance. I met alot of my friends there and I had a great time (8
I left home around 1 am and I went to my father's place cause he lives near to that place. I didn't have a chance to sleep late because the sun got up and it was shining straight to room. When I got up i just ate some breakfast and went to the bus. Now i'm just hoping I will get some pictures from that party ! :) If i will I will post here some later ! (:

I have my b-day next week so I'm going to have a small break with partying before that :DD Hope the weather will get better so I could go outside without a jacket.. !

Song of the day: Call me maybe By Carly rae jepsen

..And dance again !

Evening at the school

On Thursday we didn't have any lessons anymore but we went to school at the evening around 7 pm. There were all kinds of shows our teachers and students have made for that night.
Our teachers had made a band and they played few amazing songs. It's just amazing that those ordinary teachers can sing and play like that !

Weekend with Selma

Our friend was having a graduation party on Friday. I met Selma at the down town and we decided to go together there because neither one of us knew where it was. :D The bus stop was pretty far away from the party so we had to cross a bridge and we both were having those super high high heels. After all we got to the party and it was so much fun to meet our friends and dance together and eat some good food ! I was a bit worried how was i going to get home but since Selma's mother came to pick her up she promised to drive me home too (:

On Saturday morning I woke up because my phone was ringing. It was Selma :D
She asked what time we were leaving and I just said around 1 pm. We were going to help in another graduation party. We didn't know that girl who had graduated, we just had been asked to help there.
So when we got there they just told us what we needed to do. How to serve the coffee and what should be done when the guests comes.
We were the for almost 4 hours but it was still pretty fun. Though our legs started to ache a little everything went really well. The family was really greatful for our help and they gave us both 50 euros. I still can't believe how well they paid us!

We got home and started to change our clothes. We checked the adress for party we were going to. After alot of make up and changing clothes we were finally ready to again !
The party was really lame. There were like 5 persons plus me and Selma.. So we decided to leave to our friends place who was having a party too !
I was glad we got there cause there were good music and nice people and we were able to dance as much as we wanted !
The night was so much fun while dancing and hanging out with friends. Then we had to leave for the last bus that was going. It was leaving from down town and we were nowhere near :DD
So we started walking a bit faster and luckily our friends walked us  half way <3
It was getting kinda late and we were scared we would miss the bus so we started running. We both ran at the street with our high heels on ! Well luckily we made it !

Today when we woke up we were just watching each others with this similar look on our faces: -_-
We didn't feel sleepy anymore but both of us was whining about the aching body.. Seriously it felt like we would've been hit by a car :D
We ate some breakfast and listened good music. Selma was so cute when she was lying on the floor with a box of candy as a pillow :DDD hahahha it's been a great weekend for sure !

Now i'm just relaxing and taking it easy after a wild weekend :D Hope you guys had a great weekend too !

Song of the day: Jennifer Lopez- Dance again