Sarcastic are we

I have had a habit of writing down poems/lyrics about my feelings from time to time for quite many years. This is something I just found from my notebook and I have wrote this about a year ago. Just felt like sharing it with you:

Life is again getting kinda heavy

There are roses too but I ain't getting any

I don't get in trouble the trouble comes to me

I don't want no drama I'm just where it happens to be

By being this open I don't mean to confuse you

I'm not hoping for empathy but someone to relate to

God bless you all,

   Good night !

Lyrics

Sometimes finding the right words can be really hard. And that's when different songs comes in.

Life can be ups and downs really often and it's really calming to hear songs that describes your situation. Realizing that makes you understand you're not the only one experiencing all those things.. Or in other hand, that others are experiencing those same feelings that you do :)

I think lyrics offer hope.
Songs can help you get through tough moments in life.
But also lyrics offer support.
Songs can help you believing in your goals and also make your feelings stronger.

Sometimes song lyrics are something you wish you would hear. It makes you feel special in some way. But sometimes lyrics are just a way to descripe how you're feeling inside. Good lyrics can make a moment alot more memorable. :)

Anyway today's been kinda weird day for me and I'm not feeling the greatest but I just wanted to share my thoughts and I'm sure music is really important to almost all of us. So today all kinds of lyrics been playing in my head but in the end, this is the song that has been on my mind the most today:

                                                      Jason Mraz - I won't give up

                                        I won't give up on us, even if the skies get rough 
                                        I'm givin you all my love, I'm still looking up

                                               And when you're needing your space 
                                                         To do some navigating  
                                                       I'll be here patiently waiting  
                                                           To see what you find

June ♡

I have to say I'm loving summer and specially loved June :
Being with friends and having time of my life !
It's been all crazy since I turned 18 and we've been celebrating it so many ways.
And I must say: I'm loving life right now !

We were at one of my crew member's house celebrating the start of summer and just having fun with our crew ! We watched the movie Step Up 3d cause it's just simply amazing and... Different from ballet dancers: We eat. And we eat alot. And I'm not joking.. =D

The most important was planed carefully: The food

So I turned 18 at June 15th. (Yes, the same day as Kim Kardashian's and Kanye West's child was born) And I had a party with my dearest and nearest friends. Even though many good friends of mine sadly couldn't come, I had the time of my life and I couldn't have asked for better day !
I rent a place for the party and it was just so perfect for the party 8)
A friend of mine was so kind to work as a dj at my party and I made pizza for the evening and some of my friends brought some snacks also. We kept partying til 1 am at that place and then we went to a bar with some of them. It really was the best birthday I've ever had !

My party people !

 

 

 

The amazing b-day presents ! ♡

Another summer night at the bar 

So after my b-day me and my mom went to a cruise to Stockholm !
It was really an amazing trip and the weather was great in Sweden. I was also happy to find out I was actually being able to communicate with others there speaking swedish !
The food was great at the cruise and the ship was beautiful (8 I really enjoyed the trip !

And so the party wouldn't end when we got back from the cruise it was time for Midsummer ! We went to the summer cottage with my relatives to celebrate it and it was really great. It was pretty much all about barbeque and sauna and swimming =D I loved it !

Midsummer with the best company !

After all these amazing moments I can't wait what's yet to come ! There's still summer left and I'm hoping to get more of these amazing experiences! Wish you all the best summer ever !

Song of the day: today it's gonna be a finnish song called Huuda by Haloo Helsinki

Summer nights here I come !

Finally the school is over and it's summer time !

All the exams are behind and there's no need to wakeup on Monday morning at 6 am after weekend. You can just stay in bed as long as you want. I'm really starting to like this haha !
It doesn't really feel like a summer break, more like a long weekend but i'm sure i'll get used to this sooner or later. 
The last exams were kinda hard. I wasn't sure if I would make it when I had my swedish oral skills test. I stuttered sooo bad. But I hope my teacher thinks it was good enough. And when I had my history exam i was just looking at the questions thinking "oh shit.." But somehow I managed to get a great grade. =) So I was really happy !

Oh and we had a show on Fashion Days where we were modeling clothes and dancing ! It was an amazing experience with a shop called Halonen ! I'm really thankful for the opportunity. :)

On Saturday we were celebrating the beginning of the summer break and end of scool for good for some of us. It was quite fun and the weather was nice.

It's been kind of a shock how quickly the weather changed so warm. It feels like it was just a month ago when there was snow all over =D It's not really true but it feels like it =D and now here's so sunny all day long and the nights are bright. It's pretty cool. Noticed that when I was walking home on Saturday around 3 am :D

Yeah well nothing much really comes to my mind so it's time for photos !

Friends and Fun ;)

 

 

Summer !

I wish you all great and relaxing summer ! Enjoy your sunny days :)) And for the people in Finland: Do not wine about it being so hot atm cause it's anyway gonna be freezing cold after couple of months ! =D
God bless you all <3
Song of the day: Miley Cyrus - When I look at you

Rewind ►►

Hey,
I haven't really had time to write though I kinda promised I would do it atleast between every few weeks. But here's a little rewind of the things that has been happenin !


Competitions

We practised everyday for the last two weeks before the Finnish Championships. It was really hard but it was also very good experience for the exercise and preparing for the competitions.
I was actually really honored to be able to perform Meg's routine and I was happy about my crew too. We competed in a gategory called show case and from 42 crews we got to the 6th place !! It was so freaking awesome and so not expected cause of the level of the crews ! Like none of us really believed that we got to the finals :D
And beyond everything else: I am extreamly proud of my big sister who was competing in formations and her crew got Silver though she hurt her shoulder in the middle of the first round !!

We had to leave at 5.30 am to competitions cause it was so far away
So here's a photo of just waken dancers almost ready to go to the stage

From a burger place near the competition place
The place had it's b-day :D

Happening

In Finland we celebrate May Day at springs.
And every year it's an amazing day when all the people get to get to celebrate to parks and stuff!
So this year it was also so much fun (as always) and I'm so happy I was able to spend such a great night with my friends.


Only negative side on summer is that I always have problems with my allergy on summer. So now I'm really able to do any sports cause I'm having such a bad cough and kind of a flu cause of it. And I had a broken bone on my leg but I thought I was able to dance cause it doesn't hurt anymore but the doc said I shouldn't. That kinda sucks.

My school has been so hard at times cause the teachers give us so much work ! I have literally cried during my homework (specially while studying Swedish) :D But still I have finally had some time (though I can't understand how) for baking and for my driving school  after a long break. Driving has been so awesome and I'm really hoping to get my driving license next month !
And baking has been mostly about cakes lately :D My mom heard one cake recipe we wanted to try and today I made a cake to my mom for tomorrow's Mother's Day. I hope she will enjoy it ;)

 

So that's a small summary of the happenings from these few months !
Did you people celebrate May Day? And if you did, how ? :P
Hope you're all doing good ! Hugs ! ♡

Song of the day: The Script - Breakeven
Really liking that song ^  !

Things change

I really haven't had any time to write for a long time.
I had alot school work and we had to practise for the premilinary competition.

Practising ain't easy
 Like I said we've been practising a lot for the last months.
My ankle had a muscle infection so I had crutches for three weeks. It was so freaking depressing not to be able to walk, to carry thing or even stand.. Not mentioning that I wasn't able to practise my dancing.
But I did still go to practises. I sat on a chair and danced while sitting. I was doing my best to learn stuff by watching. It was hard and sad but it did help me learning.
But we all just had the attitude that we want to be able to say "we made it" !
After all the premilinary competitions went well on Saturday and we got to the Finnish championships !

School work
 We had to do a research at school about health education. Me and my partner made a research about sexuality health. It was really intresting but there was so much work !!
First we needed to do the actual research and then try to analyze it .. It took soooo many days. -.-
Luckily we had that interesting subject. Last Friday we had it finished :)


I had alot of stress cause of all the work I had. But right now I'm able to walk again and the life tastes sweet. :) The people around me has been so supporting when I have had my difficulties and I'm so thankful for that.
Now i have to keep reading for my exams.
Hope you all have someone around you to support you when you feel sad and powerless. :) Feel thankful for the things you have and never take 'em for granted.


Song of the day: We are the world

The best ever !

We had a spring break from school last week and it was the best holiday ever !
Usually I don't do a thing on holidays and it just goes by while i'm just hanging out. But this time it was all different !

My spring break started by taking care of the dogs while my parents weren't in town.
It was actually quite nice to stay alone for change.
I met my friends and I had lunch with my dad once. It was just really nice and relaxing !
I also met my cousins when they were visiting the city. The older one is a 13-year-old girl and the younger one is a 11-year-old girls so it was quite a challenge to rent a movie that all of us would like. But I did find one ! Called Guess Who? We laughed so hard and screamed as one things like "NONONO DON'T DO IT!!" to the tv screen =D I had also bought burgers for us so it was really a tasty evening ;)

On Tuesday I took a train to Helsinki to meet up my sister.
I sat a bit more than 3 hours at the train eating chili peanuts and listening to music.
The next day we went shopping with my sister and I found TWO dresses (8 And they weren't even expensive. The other was the same kind of one that my sister wanted to buy so we just agreed that we won't attend the same parties since we bought those dresses. =D


On Thursday it was time to go back home. But before I had to leave we went to a restaurant with my sister. It was so good ! And then we went through some shops we didn't go to the day before. Andd we bought doughnuts xD Like my sister said: "You're probably getting a lil bit wrong idea about what it's like to live student life. We've been just eating at restaurant, shopping and eating doughnuts" =DD
My way back was quite nice cause I had really kind people sitting next to me. The other one gave me her newspaper to read and I talked a little with the other one about his iPad's games xD


On Friday we went to a ski center with my mom's sister's family.
My cousin taught me how to snowboard.. xD It was so damn hard !! But alot of fun =DD
It was nice to stay over at their cabin there and really have time to talk and hang out with my cousins.

On the road !

The end of the weekend I stayed at my father's. I continued my "extreme life" by driving a snowscooter ! It was so pure madness !! But still fun though :DD We also went driving with my friend on Saturday evening and it was so much fun !
I also went to see the movie The beasts of the southern wild. It was kinda a heavy movie and very touching but at the same time reaaally weird..

I found my super old hc hoodie yesterday ! =D

Now i'm just back at school and things keep on going like they used to :)
I hope you had / or you will have a great spring break too if you're having one !
God bless you all. :)

Song of the day: The rembrandts - I'll be there for you